A few years ago someone came into my life and taught me that it wasn't safe to trust, and I haven't ever since. I tried to use the experience to develop myself. I've grown immensely as an individual since those days and I couldn't be happier with who I am today. The fear is always there, though... the fear of letting go and trusting someone. I was taught through that relationship not to expect anything from anyone but myself, especially not follow-through on promises or apologies.
It takes a lot to apologize to someone when you know what you did was truly hurtful, when you know what you did changed their life. But, just now, all this time later, an apology has come. I had thought I didn't need an apology anymore. I was more than convinced that I had moved on. But due apologies are due apologies. I didn't expect the relief I felt when I finally read the words I didn't know I still needed to read. I am finally able to sincerely forgive.
I am thankful more than you will ever know.
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